Did the prayer of brokenness resonate with you?
Are you aware how broken you are?
We talked yesterday about what Jesus has actually called us to. What we often say we want to be about. I really believe that for there to be a connection between the people we say we want to be, the one Jesus talks about, and the person we are takes hard self-reflection.
Sometimes we really need a prayer like that when we start to reflect.
Honest, full of real pain and worry. One where we don’t lie to ourselves or God. From the heart. The head has been told God is coming, but the heart worries. He may never come. This persistent darkness may be just that, persistent. One where God doesn’t just show up and fix the world at the end. No “I know you hear me and all will be ok.” Because if you’ve ever been there like I have you don’t know that.
God may not come.
But we still praise God.
Not because He fixes us but because He is worthy.
I think this honest reflection on our pain, brokenness, and doubt is important. Its important when we reach out to community. It’s important in our own lives. How can we expect to connect when we answer everything with “don’t worry God’s going to fix it” when there is a distinct possibility that what the person is praying for, broken because of, or pain they are feeling won’t just go away.
Life is too complicated for insincere or simple answers.
It’s all a part of Gods plan.
God is in control don’t worry.
You just need to trust more
Maybe you need to have a little more faith.
Placing God as some kind of fix all solution cheapens who God is and starts people down a path that can often lead to hatred and resentment of God. If you’re told that if you believe in God he will fix everything. And then you go to church and sings songs every week that reinforce how God is in control and see nothing but people who appear to be super happy and full of joy that makes a very clear statement that if you know God you should be happy and whole.
But your real struggles continue, what do you do with that?
You can start to think what you’re doing wrong. You go to church, you sing the songs, participate in home church, read your bible, pray, you do everything your told you should to make God come and fix your pain, brokenness, doubt.
And a year, 2 years, 35 years later it’s all still there and you just start to wonder.
Maybe God doesn’t love me.
Maybe God isn’t real.
Maybe it’s all been a lie.
That’s why we have to be honest when we’re sharing our experience, good and bad.
We hide our doubt despite the fact that it’s part or humanity. It resonates with those who haven’t found God yet because everyone has it.
But we hide it making it seem like we are different, better than they are. Fixed and whole.
We are different but different because we have seen our brokenness and said God I need you. It’s our honest response to brokenness that is different not the experience of having it.
And it’s that response, Jesus that we need to share.